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Welcome to my blog Liam! Here are some questions posed by my Facebook friends…
Friendship – how you have different friends for different reasons in your life; the importance of friendship in our lives. Reinvention – I seem to have quite a few characters who change through the course of the story to become a different person.
Romance – finding that perfect someone, sometimes when you’re already with someone who’s not so perfect after all. Depression/melancholy – I’m a massive Abba fan, and they really knew how to do melancholy: blue eye shadow; throwing a dice wistfully; asking your ex-wife to sing about how you’ve found another woman. I also go through dark periods (Dark and Light inside of us), as most of us do, and I try to cover that in my writing too. Camp – is that a theme?
Let me put it to you like this; I enjoy the sound a high heel makes on a marble floor. I like a bit of swish and sparkle, and my writing has it too.
What genre do you write in?
All my stories contain a romantic element. I draw heavily from my experience as a gay man, and from experiences of other gay men I am friends with. I write contemporary as I can’t be bothered to research. I tend to use humour all the time in real life, and so my writing is pretty full of it too. I suppose if you had to put it in a box, how about: contemporary gay humour romance fiction – if that’s a thing.
What genre of books do you like to read?
I try to read widely and deliberately outside my favourite genre, which is popular women’s fiction or chick lit as it’s sometimes called. I enjoy a good autobiography – and a bad one if it’s bad enough. I’ve read some crime / thrillers too. I read man lit, books by Tony Parsons and Mike Gayle. I enjoy a good John Grisham too.
Do you limit yourself to only the genre that you write yourself?
In your opinion, what are the most important attributes to remaining sane as a writer?
How much research do you put into your writing?
If you could collaborate with another author who would it be?
How do you feel about being interviewed?
Being interviewed is fine, I’ve met you in person and you were lovely. I wasn’t expecting any nasty questions, like Jeremy Paxman. Overall my feeling on Best Friends Perfect Book One being published – borderline terrified/excited, a bit like myself; borderline shy/wild.
Best Friends Perfect Book One is published 4 June by Wilde City Press.
Best Friends Perfect
Coming out, Kieran added Jo and Kev, two gay men, to his best friends Hannah and Grace for a perfect group of best friends…or so he thought.
real name was Jonathan, but he didn’t like anyone calling him that, and would
only answer to ‘Jo’, specifically spelt that way. Jonathan Davis. We did
everything together, we were best
friends. We weren’t boyfriends, more like girlfriends, or maybe brothers, if we
were feeling a bit less camp.
can get over: death, betrayal, loneliness. No matter what life throws at you to
change your plans, to stop you as you try to make your perfect life, somehow
you pick yourself up and continue. I survived all those things, because I’m here,
happy in my life now.
thought my life would be; when I was eighteen, taking my first steps into the
whole new world of being gay, my idea of
perfect wasn’t anything like what I have now.
I had it all worked out. I’d find my perfect Boyfriend––capital B; my perfect
new gay friends Jo and Kev would join my two other best friends, Hannah and
Grace, to complete my perfect life. How wrong was I?
along, and it wasn’t nearly that simple. Only now, that part of my life is an
ancient memory, along with the music, combat trousers and sleeveless tops. Now
I’m ready to tell you my story.
youth group. I discovered my local youth group in Salisbury, a small country
town in Wiltshire. It alleges it’s a city since it has a cathedral, but really,
it’s just a big town. The doctor at the family planning clinic gave me a
leaflet that described the group and a number to call to discuss it with a
‘youth worker.’ This was a whole new concept to me, that you could have people
who were employed to work with young people, particularly gay young people. I
left the clinic clutching the leaflet in my hand. Shall I call the number now, or shall I buy the new Steps single?
car park for a while, watching everyone else go about their days, pushing
supermarket trolleys full of shopping, sitting on benches to grab a twenty
minute lunch-break from their office jobs. I thought they all knew what the
leaflet was about, they could all see my guilty secret and would report me to
the sex police or something like that. It’s
him, he doesn’t know what he’s about.
bought One For Sorrow by Steps and called the number from a phone box
just off the market square.
I’m Bruce, how can I help?”
see, I was given the leaflet from the clinic and, well…”
make an appointment to see me? I can go through what we do at the group, and
you can see if it’s something you’re interested in.”
appointment in about an hour, is that any good? If not, I can do next Thursday
at four o’clock.”
there. My mind had frozen.
an hour please?” I wanted to make the most of this new found ability to make a
decision about something, which I’d managed to not think about or act on for a
on the back of the leaflet.”
and noticed the call girl cards stuck to the window. I felt as if I’d just run
a marathon and was waiting for someone to wrap me in a silver blanket and
had the silver blanket for me. We sat in his stuffed office, piles of papers
and files covered every surface. We were surrounded by AIDS awareness posters,
pink triangles and rainbow flags. Up to this point, I’d never understood what
all these rainbow flags and pink triangles meant. Bruce explained they used the
pink triangles in prisoner of war camps to mark out gay prisoners, in a similar
way to the yellow stars of David used for Jewish prisoners.
and, smiling, passed me the rainbow mug. His temples showed the beginnings of
grey hair making an appearance. “So, what brings you here then, Kieran?”
thinking about some things lately. I’ve had more time since I finished my A
levels. I’m having a gap year—you know, a year off before going to uni—I’m off
to Australia, you see. Don’t even get me started with those people from that
GAP organisation—telling me I had to teach sport if I wanted to go to Oz with
them. I said to them, do I look like someone who plays sport?”
Australia––ten, fifteen years ago, when I was your age. It was amazing. I
climbed Ayers Rock and stayed in Alice Springs, visited Coober Pedy, the lot”
friend. I didn’t go with an organisation.”
that’s what I’m going to do. I said to him—this old guy from GAP, in his office
in Reading— ‘so what you’re telling me is, if I can’t teach sport, I can’t go
to Oz with you lot?' He nodded. ‘That’s gotta be illegal, hasn’t it? Against
some sort of human rights, isn’t it?' He said it was their policy and offered
me some shite in the Black Forest of Germany for four months. Black Forest of
Germany, I mean I’ve heard of the gateaux, but apart from that, I’m not arsed
about that, it’s all sausages and beer, isn’t it? I said if that’s all you can
offer me, I’m off and you can stick your fee and teaching sport up your arse.
So I swept majestically out of his office. Mum drove me home in shock.” I wiped
my sweaty hands on my trousers.
you’ve got some interesting plans for your gap year. What did you decide to do
in the end?” Bruce probed a bit more into the recent drama.
I’m going with Catherine, my friend from school. She’s having a year off before
uni too, and her parents wouldn’t let her travel alone, and since GAP didn’t
want me, we thought we’d go together. We’re going to travel all around, climb
Ayers Rock, just like they do in The
Adventures of Priscilla Queen of the Desert, and they can stick their fee
and sports up their arses.”
to go to Oz, because of the film?”
reason, but it certainly helped make up my mind. I mean that Guy Pearce was
great, wasn’t he? Much better than when he was in Neighbours.”
I think Out! is going to be exactly what you need.” He smiled; his eyes
sparkled and formed crow's feet.
When you’ve been doing this sort of work for a while, you can sort of sense
these things when you meet young people. Would you like me to tell you where
the group meets and what sort of things we do there?”
mean, if I don’t like it, I don’t have to go again, do I? And it’s free, isn’t
to ever come again, and it’s completely free to you, Kieran, completely free.”
He described what a typical night at Out! included, the age group of people who
came, and hunched over the map and described the best way to reach the location
of Out!, which apparently was in a Portakabin. Very glamorous.
afternoon feeling sick to the pit of my stomach. I put my new CD single on
repeat while I had a shower and got ready to go out.
ain’t it too, too bad…” sang Steps on
the CD over and over. I’ll learn the
dance moves later.
Kieran?” Mum called upstairs. “I’m making dinner. Are you eating here tonight?
I’m doing lasagne and chips, it’ll be nice.”
I’m going out afterwards. I’m going round Hannah’s to watch a film,” I shouted,
hoping if I lied quickly, it wouldn’t hurt as much.
hour to choose what to wear. Eventually, I settled on my black velvet jacket, a
red polo-neck jumper, dark flared jeans and black River Island boots, which I’d bought off my friend Mike from
college as he said they were too noisy when he walked. I, on the other hand,
loved the noise their heels made when I walked along the pavement.
towel in my top, then started to inhale the dinner, a mass of carbs with a tiny
amount of salad on the side of the plate, covered in salad cream. Mum didn’t
believe in mayonnaise or French dressing. ‘Foreign stuff,’ she called it.
more cheese on the lasagne?” Mum asked. “It’s a special new sort of cheese, I
bought it today. Someone in the salon said if I was making lasagne, I must have
Mum?” A few mouthfuls remained on my plate.
let me get it from the fridge.” She walked over to the fridge, took the new
cheese off the cheese shelf, and read the label. We all waited in suspense.
something, then Regina.” She squinted to read the label.
nice, Mum.” I smiled at my brother Paul as Mum got the grater from the
I thanked Mum especially for the ‘newly discovered cheese.’
for pudding? I got a frozen apple pie—they’re never as big as the boxes, are
they?” Mum pointed to the defrosted pie on the work surface.
box—look how big it is—it said you could serve it with ice cream or custard, so
I got both.”
across the table.
bit?” Mum picked up the pie. Paul looked at me, still in his dirty blue
overalls covered in grease from the garage where he was doing his apprenticeship.
“And where do you think you’re going, dressed like that?”
business,” I said. “Why do you ask?”
Hannah’s, leave him alone.” Mum patted my shoulder. “You can have the pie
later, can’t you, Kieran? He looks nice, doesn’t he, Dad?” She had a habit of
calling my dad—known as Michael Donovan to everyone else—‘Dad’ which was
endlessly confusing, especially when she talked about her dad, my granddad.
Hours of confusing fun could be had. Being someone who rarely read—the only
newspaper in the house was the weekly free paper, which she used to light the
fire, and the only books she read were recipe books—she regularly mispronounced
words or just used the wrong one. If Mum were at school now, she’d have
undoubtedly been diagnosed with dyslexia and could have used it to explain
these little mistakes. But in the sixties, you didn’t have dyslexia, you went
to a Secondary Modern or became a hairdresser. Mum chose the latter. She didn’t
have the dyslexia excuse, so she tried her best but didn’t always get it right.
Conscious of using the wrong word, she would become nervous and talk more and
so ran the gauntlet of tripping over more words. Memories of a particularly
painful English lesson where she had been laughed at by the whole class—the
deciding moment that led her to hairdressing college—meant we all ignored her
mistakes, at most allowing ourselves a good-natured smile or a wink to each
other. Sometimes, when we really couldn’t work out what she was talking about
from the context or the word was so mangled out of recognition, we would then
ask her what she meant, but most of the time, it was just part of how she
spoke, like someone’s accent.
me in my carefully chosen ensemble and nodded before quickly returning to his PC Today magazine. Clothes—not one of
Dad’s strong points. Dad was a man of few words, and if you wanted him to say
even fewer, ask him about clothes or shopping.
I’m off now, bye.” I grabbed my coat from the hallway. I checked for my wallet,
not that it had any money in it, but I liked to feel its comforting bulge in my
my red and white Citroen 2CV Dolly,
parked next to Mum’s Citroen 2CV. In typical “maybe I should…” mode, she’d
bought hers exactly one month before I bought mine. I should have seen it
coming. She'd taken a detailed interest in the research I’d done at Salisbury
reference library—once Dad had pointed me in the right direction, research
being one of his fortes, unlike clothes. After one long conversation when I’d
described what the plus points were of these cars, she’d sipped her tea and
said, “Write it all down for me, will you?” Next thing, she and Dad had
earmarked a Saturday to go Citroen
shopping, cars being the one subject where Dad could talk for hours. During the
intervening month until I bought my
Priscilla, every mealtime Mum extolled the virtues of the new car. “So cheap to
run…the roof’s easy to roll back and it’s like a soft top…lovely soft seats…”
To which I bit my tongue as it was me
who’d told her each of these points
in the first place.
with me to buy what was to become my
Priscilla, we were both Citroen 2CV
experts and spent the day in his car testing each other’s knowledge. I
cherished our time together like this, easily talking about cars, discussing my
library research, Dad said: “It’s a good skill to have, research. I use it
every day, I need to keep up to date with the latest computer changes. Useful
when you go to university.” Laughing about Mum buying the car first he said:
“She likes to know she’s making the right decision, and you’d done all the
research for her, so of course she got the same one.”
reserve this “maybe I should” just for me. One summer, she’d asked Paul to copy
all his dance music CDs: “I’ve heard your music, and I want something new to
listen to on my new Walkingalongman
Dad’s got me for when I do my exercises. The girls at the salon swear by this
special exercise. I read the brochure they showed me, and it all made sense so
I’ve got to go…”
Priscilla was my pride and joy. To my friends, she was an ‘upside down pram’,
but I didn’t care. I’d saved up for the whole previous summer. Priscilla
represented freedom, independence and the ability to play endless mix tapes on
my own without anyone criticising my taste in music. And at eighteen, that was
Friends Perfect Book One is published 4 June 2014
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